we're still here. to say that life has changed since that morning in april of 2010 when two lines showed up on the end of that all-important pregnancy test strip would be a grand understatement. the waters have been choppy along the way, and the departure from creative work while mothering became central took a toll on my spirits. but here we are. and i am--though i knew not when it would finally happen--making work again. so many folks have written to ask when we would be back online, and back to selling--we are so very flattered by your inquiries; lifted by your loving messages. thank you. we are working on getting the online shop together again. magic.
and so, this past weekend, we were back at picnic portland, and it was good. the circumstances of our work are different now. there is child care to think about and a whole different bag to pack for the day, full of frozen pureed green beans, carrots, and sweet potatoes. and at the end, we can't flop on the couch and eat crackers and hummus for dinner--we've got a little one to bathe and love up and put to sleep. but it feels right, and good, and we are learning and growing together as a little family unit. slowly my mama sea legs are coming. thank you for your love and patience. and thank you portland, as always, for a lovely day filled with good conversations and smiles. thank you to the organizers--you are amazing.
i feel so awkward and unsure of myself, blogging here about this little lady who has tilted the axis of my life so dramatically. i feel the words will never be enough. sitting here now i suddenly have tears rushing out of my eyes and down my cheeks--the massive berth of my emotion is rich and varied beyond my comprehension.
but, i think, with your gentle support, readers, i will try to write a little bit from time to time about what it is like to live here with this whole new person. and hope that putting the words out there, inadequate as they may be, will remind me of my own strength, there within me.